I haven't really talked about this, or posted about this... But I have been having the hardest time sticking to my "diet."
During the holidays I decided to relax. Tony and I had a cheat meal 2-3 times a week. So instead of being 100% on our diet, we were probably about 85% on. It was so nice. But we had agreed that Christmas was going to be the last one.
Christmas was NOT the last one. It is now February, and we have had a cheat meal about once a week. And to be completely honest, it is a STRUGGLE to only have one. I feel like I am constantly thinking about food. I am constantly fighting the cravings. I have conversations with myself and tell myself I don't need any cookies and ice-cream. Lol.
I have never had such a difficult time sticking to my diet before. I think back to my preps for my shows... I was eating below 1000 calories a day and was able to stick to it. What has changed? Have I burnt myself out? Where has my willpower gone?
I fear that after working so hard all of 2016 to get to a good place (physically, mentally, and emotionally) I am going to lose it all.
*sigh*
I have decided to put my fears aside. I do not want to be scared of food. I also do not want to live my life constantly feeling deprived. Unless I am prepping for a show or trying to make weight for a meet.
So I am going to take a diet break. This does not mean that I am going to eat like an a**hole. I am just simply going to relax, not be so precise and meticulous. I am going to eat healthy food. I am going to eat when I am hungry. And for the most part, eat what I want.
For instance, if I want to have an apple with some nut butter... Then I am going to eat it. If I want a Quest bar, then I'm going to have one. I know what is healthy, and what isn't.
I'm still going to utilize nutrient timing. I am going to keep my carbs around my workout. And I am going to make sure to have protein with every meal.
Today is going to be day one. In a week, I am going to check in with myself... I'm going to see how I feel, how I look, where my weight is at. I am also going to keep a close eye on my performance in the gym.
Each day I will be blogging about how things are going. I have decided to blog about this because...
1. It will help me stay accountable.
2. It is a more fun way to track everything vs charts and calorie counting.
3. Others can see what I'm struggling with and how I overcome it.
Here we go... (nervous and excited).
Ps. I will be posting the healthy recipes that I try :)