Okay... So Monday I had a bit of a mental break down.. If you read my blog then you probably know.
I had a serious talk with Tony about what exactly my goals are going forward.
My goal is to have my best meet yet at the US Open. I really don't care about how much I weigh.
And then after the US Open I will be starting my prep for my Pro Debut. My goal with that is come in looking my absolute best! Especially my legs! I want to have all the conditioning and definition that I need to hold my own on the pro stage.
So... With where I am at now.. If I continue to diet and add in cardio.. I will most likely not be able to perform very well at the US Open. Trying to cut 10 pounds just isn't going to happen. Like I mentioned in my previous blog(s).. I am getting leaning, but my weight isn't dropping.
ANNNDDD, If I continue to try to get to 114. My calories will be low and my cardio will be somewhat high.. Which is NOT where I want to start when I begin my prep.
I decided to not cut down to the 114 weight class. I am going to start increasing my calories. 100 calories this week, and another 100 next. Then I will do a water cut (if needed) to get to the 123 weight class.
Part of me feels like I gave up. But I didn't. I am just working with my body and MY GOALS! I have to look at my long term goals. I was so focused on my meets, that I totally forgot about my shows. And I was so focused on my body weight, that I forgot about how I will perform.
I am feeling really good physique wise and performance wise. So I will just keep that up. I also feel a lot better now that I am eating some more food. I was going a bit crazy.
In the end.. I feel like I learned a valuable lesson...
Sometimes you have to listen to your body. Even though I was doing all of the right things, my weight wasn't going down.. So clearly, I needed to change something.
This change will be a good thing. I definitely need to get my caloric intake up. I would like to get it between 1800-2000. And maintain a good shape and look. After this meet, I don't really need to worry about what my scale weight is. I just want to make sure I am in a good place before I start prep. I worked way too hard the past two years to just diet away all of my gainzzz!